Girlllllllllll.

Zee Avi.


Music saves my soul. Not Jesus.
I hope that didn't offend anybody xP

What a blop

This is the lowest point in my life.
I feel like I've lost everything
Not even a best friend I can depend on to prove to me,
"I'm still here."
Honestly, we don't talk that much anymore.
Maybe it was a mistake to be around so much.
Nothing feels real and complete anymore.
I missed the old days
I thank my family for being my undivided comfort.
At this point, I can't go on any longer facing you.
In my mind, I can make it through. And I've tried, so hard.
You don't even know nor do you understand.
It's not in my taste to sugar-coat everything.
Yet I also tend to lie numerous times even to myself.
A lot of people tell me that "ladidadidadida"
Easier said than done. Anyone should know this by now.
Don't you think that it has crossed my mind?
I tend to be out of line, I know.
Please, let's not stay in contact for awhile.
I need this time, too
To rethink, relive, heal, maybe.
'cause we're two parallel planes
Two people whose lives will not cross, again
Sayonara, baby.

Forget it.

Everyone is consumed in their own happiness, what will happen to the ones who do not have it?
Yes, have all the pleasures that you will, leave me be.
I'm selfish.
Yet I have nothing.
Ha ha, that's ironic.

Well there's a good news!

I recently flipped through the UCD course catalog, and Abby told me that Davis offered textile as a major. T,T,T,E,E,X Textile, there it is. I found where I wanted to be. Or at least for now...I think in my head, I've always wanted to work in this kind of field. Marketing. something. Maybe clothing. Fabrics, but how...Does college offer this specific category? Indeed so. So I was psyched, of course! I got it all planned out in my head, too. xP Minoring in a language. Maybe French, or some Asian language. I hope this is really something I want to do. So for the next 3 years, I will try work toward graduating with this major. It's so great when you know what you want because it is also rare. Wish me luck!

Trial-and-error

I've tried tumblr from Denny's recommendation, and I don't seem to like it. Maybe because I still haven't figured out the whole mechanism. Many people say that it's so simple, extremely easy to use, but I find blogger to match that description better. I don't know, I feel more at ease writing on this site.
Oh yea, and I also tried to stop liking you. Failed attempt.
I tried to befriend with a guy that Vivo, Jon, and I supposedly help to get with my best friend, but he can't even treat me like a friend. Fail, too.
I tried to be happier this year. XX
I tried to get Yingsi's present together so that it will get to her by May 7th, but Chi was not home to drive me around. XXX
I've tried to go to the arc at least 3-4 times a week. XXXX!!!
So much trial...and ERROR.
And I feel as empty as a drum. Credit to Norah Jones (Don't Know Why)