Hmm...

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

REXSTNCE

The future is a fragment of time, one that you can see but never predict but something that you can control to a certain extent. So we take matters into our own hands.
The heart acts faster than the mind. Once you see him, your heart starts racing. But your mind gives you second thoughts. The people who play with their heart seems to always win first place. We see them falling in love, achieving it, possessing it, and holding onto it with the instinct and strength of what their heart has built up. But one day, they get tired because their fuel runs out, their heart runs on empty.
For me, I've always acted on my mind. I think I learnt a lot over the course of my teen years, for waiting out. People say, "good things come when you wait." I'm not sure if I'll believe in that, although it is a very optimistic stand. Whatever the outcome, I was glad that I waited. Even if it takes forever for me to understand.
...But you can't wait for forever. Only the losers wait.

I left my heart at the skyline.

I think I could get it back because I can see it in plain sight.
But I cannot because it is out of my reach.

I honestly don't know why it has to be

You.
I used to think I can control this nonsensical emotions, but it's becoming almost unbearable. I'm on the verge of messing up and I like the thought of that. But don't do it. I tell myself. Don't do it, silly.

I wanna cry

like the rain. That kind of feeling where you're tired of sunshine and hot weather, and you want to weather yourself under an umbrella, and hear the sound of droplets of water coming from the sky. And I want to hear myself cry.
Someone told me it is unhealthy to hold in your tears. I can sense my heart being needled every time I do that. Maybe that person is right.
Humans are like seasonal changes, we need that balance of sunlight and grey skies.
Then I should tell myself, I'm just human, not superwoman.
And breakthrough to tears.