I'm really not the kind of person to express my insecurities everytime I feel that it gets to me. So when I couldn't take it any longer, I overdone myself by 120%.
It's 4:20 am. I want my family. I. Don't. Like. It. Here. I wish I had more reassurance but I know for sure I can only find it when I'm home. With my mom, my sisters, and brothers. My mom and Lan believe that you can't depend on your friends, your family will always be there for you. And I was out there to prove the former wrong. But I really feel helpless sometimes because I really can't feel any consolation even when I'm with the people who I see as my best friends. I hate myself for feeling this way. Like I don't have a reason or right to. But why do I feel like a lonely traveler sometimes? People tend to push away from me. They don't want to be around me. I can't help how unlikeable I've become to myself and to others.
Winter Break, I'm waiting for you.
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