Home is

like a good dream. Except it can also be a reality. It's something similar to a fluffy and warm comforter that I wrap myself with when the wind arrives.
So, I've been home ever since Saturday. I found myself happier being at home. It's like a sanctuary for me now when I feel out of place. Even though I told myself and a bunch of people that I would like to stay home most of the time this week, but I've been out for three days already. It's really hard not to go out when your friends are coming back to Oakland calling you out. =\ I really do want to stay home but at the same time I don't want to not see my friends.
On Tuesday, I went to San Jose Christmas in the Park for Alvin's and Bryan's birthday. It was nice seeing people from Davis again. Although we didn't get to do much or hang out as a whole, I had fun. However, it's hard not to admit I did feel like a loner at times cause everyone had someone to talk to and I'm just standing around. We stayed out till 12am and thanks to Danny, Abby, Diem and I had a ride back home.
On Wednesday, Anna called me out early in the morning to see her because she just came back from Harvard. Let's see, Anna got sooo much more outgoing (in good and bad ways). But then if she's happy with the things she does at Harvard, then I'm glad that she is satisfied with her life there. Diana, Abby, Diem, Anna, and I went to Berkeley to visit Nancy. Nancy still has her finals, so sucks for her. haha. Met up with Jin, Davis, and Thomas so we went to grab something to eat. Then we went back to Davis dorm to watch youtube videos on prank calls. They were so hilarious. Good times with Thomas and Davis =) and of course Diem and I started camerawhoring on Davis's Mac. hahaha =P
So today, I went to visit Tech. Nothing more I can say except I MISS IT sooooo much!!! =(
So for now I really want to see and hang out with a whole bunch of other people that I haven't seen yet. I miss you guys! So many things to do. Oh yea and I'm broke. xP
Last time I was talking to a certain somebody about how I feel better when I'm alone. It sucks to have to live this way. I actually realize how lonely I am when I'm around a whole bunch of friends. So I actually prefer being alone. I don't know what's gonna become of me. I used to be so loud and alive and now I'm so kept away and afraid. But all in all, home is a peace of mind.