A breather.

I feel like I've been suffocated with too much thoughts, too much sweets, too much care. And when have these things turned into "too much?" It used to be not enough, not enough, not enough. Now it's just overwhelming. I don't think I deserve all these. But everytime I recieve, I feel hurt instead of happy because I am also hurting that person. Should I just say "stop" and take no more? I've never come down to rejecting anyperson point blank unless the topic was brought up. It's hard for me, and I know I shouldn't be the one complaining because I have been fortunate for someone to put much thoughts into me. Still...it's something I can't seem to accept (and yet I do. How ironic) because in essence, I do not like him.
Honestly, I am selfish. And beyond that, I wish someone could comfort me and get me out of this. I am a bad person. =\