Redemption.

Sometimes when I reminisce how I was back then, it makes me even more sad. I used to be so carefree, nothing (like what is happening right now) could break me down. I guess as you grow older, you feel the need to keep a spot for yourself in this world so that you will not be forgotten. So every little thing can make you feel threaten. Best friend, I'm glad I have someone like you around. Honestly, I feel guilty for always getting moody on you and demanding things out of you. I want to be like how I used to be and I think that's why you enjoy being around me right? Not like how I am now. But I'm thankful that you stick around and was understanding and sensible to my insecurities. I <3 you! I want to redeem myself because I think I made you tired. I want to be energetic like before. The fact that I depledge, I don't want that to cause a rift in our friendship. And it will not. I want to be like a comfort pillow to you not a blob of messiness for you to fix. It really shouldn't be that way and I'm sorry that it turned out that way. I think I should stop doubting you because that would only hurt both of us and our friendship. I promise that I would be a better best friend and that is my new year's resolution.