Truth hurts.

It's not that I don't care. I understand, if I were to put myself in your shoes, how you would feel. Being in a group of five where there are already two well-established friendships, it would be difficult to suppress the wanting to assimilate. But these kinds of things cannot be forced upon itself. Like even if you wanted to be best friend with someone, it could not be obligatory acts just to make another person feel better. And I don't want to lie to make you feel better because the truth is we haven't gotten to that level. At the same time, it doesn't mean that I don't care. There isn't much that I can do. It takes time and patience for a friendship to naturally grow. But do not dismiss the fact that all of us care and love each other. We would not leave each other behind and that is something sacred about our friendship. It doesn't happen everywhere and to everyone. On days, I wish that I could established a closer friendship to certain people, too. But then I know if I kept pushing at it, then the end product will be two words: uncomfortable, forceful. I don't want it to be that way with five of us. During high school, not all of us were close to each other. But look where we are at? There will always be someone in your life where you feel absolutely comfortable with. That is your best friend. You can have more than one depending on your preference. I have Diem. Then there are people who you know will be there to support you and make you feel belong. I have Panda.
edit: It's been pretty busy lately. For everyone. I recently depledged from a lil sis program. It took me a while to come to this decision. I just don't think it was for me. I like meeting new people and having fun I'm just not really the party, up-for-everything type of girl. I don't want to be a party pooper either. So lately, me and 5 other girls that I will be living with next year were looking for apartments. We found a really nice place but the review said that there is a high crime rate. But there will be some of our guy friends living there so I think we'll be fine. I most definitely cannot wait to move in. I'm so excited to managed a home of my own (along with my housemates) I can't wait to cook. I'm sooo sick of eating DC food. I'm wasting money left and right xP. The other time we did room-drawing from a bag and my dear luck got me and Diem the biggest room in the house. But it doesn't really make us feel good even though we got a big room because some people got the smaller room. I hate it whenever things come down to this. But we did a fair and square room assignment. If I were to get a small room, of course I would be iffy, but then I'd accept my fate. Honestly, even if you don't say anything, people would understand how crappy you feel for getting a small room. At least we would empathize. But pleaseee you don't have to be so open about it with your complaints and whines, we can't do much about it. I know I'm being mean for saying this, but it is unfair when we have to deal with complaints even though we did get our room under an unbiased and equal system. Anyway, I hope next year when we move in will be a good one. We will all be family-like! I like the people I'm living with already =) and of course the people who will be living close to us (the 'ba tam') hahaha.