I feel like I just drank from the fountain of youth.

Good Morning! I've been waking up consistently these days. Anyway, that was not the point of this early blog.
To start it off, I find it nonsensical that I took on the habit of going to sleep while hugging Mister Panda...It's pretty hard to hold him because his head is big with a small body. So I have to hold his head all the time. haha...
With all these acceptance and embracement of my own feelings and habit, I think it's the only way for me to let go. And pretty soon, it will be all memories. Then when I look back, I can laugh at myself for my follies and mistakes.
Sometimes, I wish he could be mean to me. Reallyyy mean to me, so then I can hate him. That's usually the fastest way to end things. hahaha. But it's not going that way! Oh, well. And life goes on. And I have to move on because nothing and no one is waiting for me. That's what I tell myself. Even though James said I always have something depressing in my info (which is not true...did you take a look at my info?), when you see me smiling and laughing with my friends, it's genuine. I think I love my life although I faltered along the way. Diem said that someone was bound to get hurt, and I did. But wounds are meant to be healed like mistakes are meant to be learned. So let me fall and break (but don't break all of me) so I can teach myself how to stand back up all on my own.