Sigh...=| --> =)

This is a sigh of relief. Looking back at those pictures and sweet comments of those lovebirds. I realized I have missed out. I've been walking on this kind of road: whenever I like someone, I always try to retain my cool. So if I ever find myself running toward a dent on a road I know how to retrieve. If I ever face rejection, I can pull myself back up and say "I'm ok" and everyday will be like any day. This is to save face and hopefully it will not bog down people's lives. And...for the past idk years, it worked. Haha. Yea I'm used to this routine. It's a habit.
But then I recently talked to Hieu and finally admit, "I totally lost my cool." It's true. I lost it. But at the same time, I still try to put on a front. =P And it's not helping. Ew.
So finally I put up the courage to retrace my step. How did I get to this point? Then I've come to admit that I liked you. I like you. Then I realize that it's not that bad to be honest with myself. But yea...in my life, whatever I do, I think a lot about the consequences. Can I live for one day and not think about it? It's today, I believe. So there, I admit, even if everyone sees it and shakes their head at me for it.
What I learned from this whole thing is that when I like someone, I should show how I feel even if I lose my cool---mask. I don't know what you think, but I thought I was pretty cool. haha jp!
So from today onwards, I will try be honest with myself. Help me, friends.