Ever since this whole thing happen, I feel scared to fall into the same hole again. This whole summer, everything is like the stock market. Happiness rises up then it falls back down. And sometimes me and my girls wish that we haven't met any of you. Because in the beginning, we were only looking for friendship but something else came around. Well at least we did become friends and we learn many things. Diem told me that when me and Patty met you, one of us wasbound to get hurt. That does make sense now that the puzzle comes together. It's so funny how we both became rivals in love. But I think I have given in to Patty from the beginning (white flag up). Blast my instinct! But looking back on everything, I felt glad that Patty has finally found someone who can give her an official happiness instead of hiding it in the dark. Of course I have to admit I have a hint of regret. But everything looks great for both of them. Like Diana said, if they both seem to be getting along fine, then I should be happy for them. Mmm. I won't let my feelings get the best of me. Or let it become a problem for others. So I hope we can be friends. If not then that's fine.
But summer is closing in on everyone and Panda will become like P A N D A. With Patty going to Harvard...whenever I think about it...no matter how much we love each other, and how attached we are, I'm still afraid. These girls have given me so much support and care, I <3 them. I hate letting others see me cry b/c I can't cry as pretty as Yingsi. Haha. So I'll just cry here at my desk. xP
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First one to read it! yay!
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