=D Smile.

I like this song (Divine Idylle), it makes me smile. I wish it was longer so my smile can last. But then the best thing about life is you can play it over and over again to regain that delight. Like music, I can replay the happy memories in my head until I'm sick of it. Sometimes I find it weird how my smile could be so easily bought from the simplest happenings in life. People mock at me for it, but the saying goes, "Smile is golden." And the more you smile, the longer you live. Haha, ok ok I don't know if that's proven , but damn it feels good to know that you're smiling. So let me tell you something...Patricia. =)

I hope you know that the more you show me that you're happy, and that you and him like each other, I will be able to move on. If you keep doing the "uhh" and the "umm" and the guilty tone toward me, I would be upset, honestly, I would. You know when you first did that, it could only give me false hope that maybe, just maybe he still likes me. And I know that he doesn't. So DON'T do that. I want you to be able to tell me about your love life, what he did to make you happy, what he did to make you mad...like before. Remember? You use to do that all the time, and you're not doing that anymore. =P Idk why, but I could only guess that you probably feel uncomfortable because I like him or w/e. We told each other that no boys will get in between our friendship, and I'm keeping my words. I know you'll keep yours, right? =)

Trust me when I said that I'm happy. I'm living by the quote that "happiness is a journey, not a destination," and I believe that the "present is a gift." You know when you run into a problem, you meet a fork on the road. I think I took the right fork. That does not mean that I have solved my problem. I don't think that everything has to have a solution, but what I did is to accept and be grateful for the present, the gift. Then I found myself to be very content. Ahhh, a sip of green tea.